yuck. i'm never drinking wine again. after 3 weeks of not drinking, it was a bad idea to drink a bottle and a half of cheap wine with friends. but it was fun… we finally decided what we're doing for jessica's bachelorette party. it'll be fun. i gained 2 pounds yesterday cause i was so hungover and all i wanted was to eat pizza so i did. oh well. i fed the rest to the dogs for breakfast this morning, so it'll be dog fart central here … but i am either going to work soon or going over to jessica's house to see laura, my friend who is pregnant and visiting from asheville. that's that, i'm going to shower now.

mood: crappy
weight 218.5

today sucks. i missed my first class cause i was so busy working that i forgot to look at the clock. oh well, not a big deal. but then i realized that i had to do my supreme court briefs. well i started to do them, then i decided i don't wannna do them. so i'm not gonna do them and i'm not going to crim law. but i have to go to 2250, cause doleys is an ass. oh well….i'm stuck on campus til at least 9pm anyways. now i'm trying to figure out this other thing at work, which is less fun. i hate databases. anyways i gotta go do that, but at least i've lost weight, that's good, and i shaved my head yesterday.

ok so i'm really into changing my body. i have quit smoking, cut back on drinking and i'm sticking to atkins again (i don't wanna hear what you all think about atkins, it works for me and i feel great when i am staying on course). i haven't worked out in a week, which sucks, but it's cause i was really sick last week. but i know that i can get back into the shape i was in in high school. i feel really good today. it's days like this that make me want to do well in school and study and work out haha. i don't know why i feel so good, it must just be a manic swing. oh well, i'll take them when i can get them. so in order for me to get to my goal weight of 180 by october (jess and casey's wedding, where i'm the 'man of honor'), i only have to lose 5 pounds a month. so that will be no problem, i can lose like 5 pounds a week (which i have already done this week). it's not really the weight that bothers me, it's being so out of shape. but i have to let my lungs heal too - 10 years of smoking a pack a day made them pretty crappy. so swimming is good aerobic exercise, but i am still going to have to work hard to get my stamina back. i'm also lifting weights at home, which is good. i don't know why i'm posting all this crap on the internet, but it makes me feel better and feel like i have to stick with it if someone is watching me, even if it's that one imaginary reader that i have. so here's an idea i just had: i'll post my weight at least once a week so that i can track my progress and so can you bob, the imaginary reader. when i started back on atkins in january i was at 235, i'm now at 221 and that's with not really sticking to it last week when i was sick. so i'll put that number again at the end, so it'll be easier to see this time, and maybe i'll start putting it at the top of the posts everytime. so that's that…smack me around if you see the numbers go up - or if i forget to put the numbers up … thanks bob!

weight: (2/17/04) 221 lbs
amt to lose to reach goal: (180 lbs) 41 lbs
amt already lost: 14 lbs

well my mass media class was cancelled this morning…so now i am sitting here at work until my “quiz” in criminal law at 2. i should really be doing some of my briefs that i missed last week, but i am not in the mood. i'm thinking of going swimming at noon since i haven't been in over a week now, but it's really freakin cold…it was snowing this morning when i got to work. that's about it for now, i'll update more when i am bored again soon.

so here i am still at work, being bored. a girl is supposed to come by tonight and we are going to work out a pr action plan. that means that the phonathon will get some on campus public relations work. that should be fun. so if you go to ksu and don't know what phonathon is, then maybe in the next few months you'll find out if all goes as planned. not much else, maybe i'll make some calls tonight.

ok i'm at work, so i'm obviously bored. here's what has happened recently. nothing. ok well last night my ex, rich, im'd me and wanted to get back together. duh who wouldn't want this? anyway, he usually does this when he's had a little gin, so i ignored it and told him i'd only get back together with him if his roommate danny moved out. well that ain't gonna happen til danny dies, so i think i don't have to worry about it. i've been talking to a few people, but not much seems to be happening in the dating world. of course mostly cause i was sick last week, and blew it with matt. oh well things go on. so i think that i will stay the course as i have been and just let things fall in my lap (no pun intended) as they do. i'm not looking for anything so maybe something will happen. what else? still no grade on my test in pols2250, and i wasn't in mass media last week, so i haven't gotten my test back in there, and i also missed criminal law all last week and didn't do my court briefs, so i am probably in trouble there too. oh well. oh - one good thing - i was hired to be a “trouble shooter” during the march 2nd elections (everyone vote). which means i get paid $50 no matter what for the day, and might have to be sent to a polling place to conduct exit polling. if i do get called out then i get $150. so it's a pretty good deal. well, that's about it i think, i have another test today, in am. legal sys. so that i gonna suck too. wish me luck!